I am the luckiest person in the world. You are everything that I've ever needed. You give me confidence when I doubt myself. You bring me joy when I'm down. You give me perspective when I think too narrowly.
I love your goofy attitude; your "way" with words; your cheesy smile. You are so beautiful when you smile. You remind me that I sometimes take life too seriously. I love to watch you enjoy yourself; when you find humor in the littlest things. I love when you get so excited that you squeak, and that you snort when you laugh. Or when you're so excited to say something that your words come out in a jumbled mess. You are completely unafraid to be the goofiest person I know.
You are my source of comfort. You are my source of strength. You've given me so much, and so much more to look forward to. I want to be there for you forever. I don't want you to lack in anything. I don't want you to lose the giddiness and excitement that makes being with you a completely unique experience.
Your enthusiasm could feed the world. You have everything anyone could ever ask for and more. And I'm so grateful that you chose to share your life with me.
That being said, I am very afraid. I'm scared to watch you get sick. I'm afraid to see you get hurt. I'm afraid to watch you age and go through all of the pain that comes with it. I'm afraid to see you get disappointed and stressed. Afraid to see you want. Afraid to see you go through overwhelming hardship and struggle. I'm afraid to ever see the light that shines so brightly in your life dim even a little. I wish I could somehow prevent all of this. I wish I could carry your every burden. I don't want to see anything happen to you. I don't want to watch any of your energy dwindle.
But, I pledge to be there for every moment. As painful as it may be for me. To not only be there for the good, but to help you through all of the bad as well. I vow to be there to find beauty in every trial we face, and to not shy away or turn back no matter what the difficulty. I love you, Natasha Ragsdale. And I will be standing beside you every step of the way.
